Dream

I hate it

I hate the fact that i had to pretend in front of you
I thought i can be honest with you
I thought....
I can be whatever i like in front of you

You said you know me well
You said you understands me

No..
You never did

Prove it to me

Prove it that you know what i feels
Prove it that you can spot my fake smile
Prove it...
that you knows me

I used to dream
that someday I'll meet someone
who can guess my feelings
someone whose gonna hug me, when i said 'i am okay' with lies
someone who knows my poker face
I'm waiting for somebody
that will reveal my mask
and release my heart from the prison of pride

but...

it's still a dream until now....












keep it up


cROWn

munafik (curcol)

gue munafik....

gue gak suka ngeliat seseorang menusuk teman dari belakang...
sedangkan gue sendiri suka ngomongin orang di belakang

gue gak suka ngomongin kejelekkan temen gue...
padahal dalam hati gue suka ngejelekkin dia

tiap refleksi, gue selalu bilang gue akan rajin belajar dan berubah..
faktanya nilai gue makin turun...

kalo nilai gue jelek, kdang-kadang gue suka ngatain gurunya gak bisa ngajar..
padahal gue tau persis kalo itu kesalahan gue sendiri, gue gak belajar

gue suka bilang ke temen-temen, kalo ada masalah di share aja, biar makin ringan..
sedangkan gue menutup diri sama mereka.

gue benci sama seseorang,
tapi di depannya gue berlagak manis

gue ingin jadi orang yang berguna buat sesama gue..
tapi waktu mereka minta tolong gue segan...

tiap kali ucap Doa Bapa Kami khususnya bagian 'ampunilah kesalahan kami seperti kamipun mengampuni yang bersalah kepada kami'
gue berat untuk mengampuni.


tapi, yah...



who didn't?


manusia emang munafik kok
yah, kita berusaha aja semampu kita sekarang
berusaha jalani hidup ini...
saat-saat kita gak munafik adalah masa kecil dan masa tua
masa kecil, waktu kita masih kenalan sama dunia
masa tua, saat kita merasa gak ada lagi yang perlu ditutupi dalam hidup



live your life to the fullest





~cROWn~